Desiring the Undesirable

Desiring the Undesirable

Sydney is one of the world’s top three most romantic cities, so they say. From the famous Friday night until the end of Sunday, the parks, streets, harbours, beach, club, and any other public spots around the city are filled with couples. Hands held, shoulders hugged, waists embraced…

Amongst the romantic psychedelic that happens around me, I found romance simply exhaustive, time and energy consumptive, and merely unnecessary.

Too many people have spent too much of their time on relationships, that more often than not doomed to end eventually. There are many fish at the ocean, yes, but there are many nights you need to be out there fishing. And while you can sometimes catch them, it takes a great deal of effort to actually keep them.

As I try to move back in time, I admire the simplicity of love stories and romance that was the mainstream tradition three generations back. I remember my grandmother used to tell me that her first acquaintance with her husband was on their wedding day. Regardless of a lack of initial chemistry, their relationship flourished into a thirteen members plutonic family. And their love endures even after my grandfather no longer exists in blood and flesh..

The standard lifestyle of our society has evolved so much that many of our life sector are left with too many options. Too many people get too confused with their life choices. Am I gay, or am I straight? Am I a Catholic or Christian? Buddhist or Hindus? Religious or Atheist? Breadwinner mother or stay at home father? Straight, honest mundane existence or crazy, short-lived satisfying life? Too much variety has been accepted, leaving people confused with their too many life decisions to decide.

Could these complexities be the starting grounds of relationship obscurities? The 21st century coupledom is now filled with endless code deciphering. No means yes, yes means maybe,.... what certain words really mean, what particular gestures suggests,.... the list is endless!

Can our lifestyle be turned back to the Simpleville era where yes means yes and no means no? The society has evolved so far from its predecessors that we now refuse to go back to our ancient, non-evolved and hence, demeaning mindset.

Maybe it’s the pre-conditioned autonomous habit that we all experience during this turn of the century. Maybe it’s the human egocentricity to abandon anything that is perceived as of a lower degree of existence, of intelligence, of mentality.

Unlike anything mainstream, at the beginning of my journey I consciously realize that I’m missing, I’m wanting, I’m craving.
Desiring the undesirable.

JK